Friday, January 16, 2009


Well we are in revival and I believe that God is going and is doing the miraculous. I believe God is going to change things for the good. As of December 2, I became an adult and looking back on thing now; I wish I had done something things differently. I remember being like broken glass and always having to be out back together or renewed. That's how I felt when I was at church all the time. Always being renewed... I felt horrible that people always where trying to help me and all I did was basically ignore them. I remember at No Limits 08" when Bro. Booker had preached I remembered being in the altar and him coming to me and him telling and asking me "Your an over comer... do you believe that?'' and i replied back "Yes I do"... he said then raise your hands and receive it"... I can remember after that night my whole thought on life was changed. I may have hurt some people on the way by slowly braking them off from what would be called a friendship and focusing on what was in front of me and what was the most important thing in my life at that point and time, I had tried my hardest and didn't listen to people tell me that I wasn't going to make it. But I can just square my shoulders and let God help me through that. I can say I am a better person today then I have ever been in life. During a period in my life I felt like God had abandoned me, but as the days approached to December 2, 2008. I realized that God hadn't left my side he was with me the whole way just helping me through each open door he opened in my life. After I turned the BIG 18, I seen people for who they really were and I could no longer deal with things as a child, but as a adult, I could no longer think like a child, but think as a adult. So I put a stop to everything and looked at what God had done. When I found out that we were going to be in Revival with Bro. Marks, I can remember me saying to myself is that, I'm going to be changed and there are times that his messages are going to be directly to me and if I have to be the first person in the altar that's find cause I want God to do his will in my life. As a lot of you know, I ended up in the hospital the night of the foot washing service. I was so terrified to be there because I had not been in like 2 years to the ER. As I lay in the hospital bed I remember saying to myself this must be a test to see what I am going to do?? As I got home I remember lying in my bed just saying God you aren't going to give me too much to handle... And feel asleep singing "Lord whatever you’re doing in this season don't do it without me...” So I Thank God for his MERCY and GRACE EACH MORNING!

2 comments:

This & That said...

Just reading through that little post, I can tell... you get it! You got it! I am so proud of you hon! Keep moving forward!!

Uncle Scott

Rachel Malone said...

Samantha,

I remember driving you and Mariah in my car after shopping and a good time. You told me your dreams, your aspirations, and desires. Do you know I have never stopped believing that they will happen? This post is an answer to prayer. It is proof of things to come in your life. Get ready to see your dreams come true. love you!!!